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Dreary

The last few days have been rainy, cold, dreary. The cold weather plus the eclipse season has got me feeling a bit down. I feel like I want to crawl under the covers and hibernate for some time. But it’s not just the last few days. I’ve had a lingering feeling of apathy, a generalContinue reading “Dreary”

A moment in Autumn

A moment in autumn I sat at the top of the mountain (hill) and thought, yes, stunning. I knew this was exactly what I needed even before I got here, I enjoyed the satisfaction in knowing that I was right – a short hike in the woods, a sunny spot with a view. Perfect. AndContinue reading “A moment in Autumn”

Dance Again

It had been nearly nine years since I danced. Well, that’s not entirely true. I’d danced in my kitchen, at concerts, with friends after a class or two of wine, at weddings, I even tried latin dance classes and zumba. I’d never actually stopped dancing. But it had been nearly nine years since I tookContinue reading “Dance Again”

Avoiding the Trap

I’m writing this blog not because I feel particularly chatty, but because I’m trying to write regardless of how I feel in that particular moment. I actually feel like I am the opposite of chatty and friendly. I’m exhausted and a bit broken once again. I am once again going through a new season inContinue reading “Avoiding the Trap”

Finding Time

The other day was hard. It’s harder to be when you feel that your time isn’t yours. After not having health insurance for over a year, I finally scheduled a doctor’s visit. I don’t recommend doing that, by the way, your anxiety will increase simply because anytime anything happens with your body, you have toContinue reading “Finding Time”

Back Again

I haven’t written in a while. Mostly because I don’t feel I have done anything note worthy, which isn’t entirely true. I’ve written about this feeling before. This feeling of non-accomplishment resonates again. The world has started back up again and we are hurled into the grind. Despite the slow down of two years ago,Continue reading “Back Again”

thirty

Thirty…..t h i r t y I’ve been rolling this word off my tongue over the last few days. Thirty. 30 years alive. Three decades on this planet. I think if I were turning thirty any other year, I’d be in a bit of melt down mode. Maybe I’d throw a big party for myselfContinue reading “thirty”

Another day in the in-between

I say “I’m a writer” but why is it so hard to write sometimes? Why do I do anything other than write, when what I need most is to write? Maybe it’s because I feel I have nothing to say lately. I’m stuck in this weird world. Wake up, work, go to the gym, eat,Continue reading “Another day in the in-between”

Non-resolution

It’s the last day of 2020. I made an effort today. I woke up, wrote in my journal while I sipped rich coffee. I made calls for work, went to the gym, nothing too exciting but exciting enough. I thought I wanted this year to be over. I thought I’d embrace the new year. I’veContinue reading “Non-resolution”

The Fighter

I don’t know what it is in me that needs to fight. I never learned how to throw a punch but these hands can fly. Maybe because I think good things are worth fighting for. I want someone to fight for me, go to battle, just once get me as a prize. I fight, whyContinue reading “The Fighter”